Who I Am
I am a person with varied characteristics and personalities that makes me very unique. I change my attitudes and values, if the situation requires me to do so. I have a great talent and I can accomplish almost any proposition that I make to myself. I have a talent for the numbers: I like Math and I dislike English. I could be sad and happy at the same time: I like watching T.V and playing video games. I enjoy my life. I like girls, and I don't like to rush into relationships because the relationship does not last long.
Whenever I am disappointed, I like writing poems, I have written English and Spanish versions. The one I like the most is “Heart to Heart.” I hear to music and I love watching music videos, I enjoy them. I do exercise, but these the days that have gone I have stopped practicing. My friends and I have been planning to play football from Monday to Friday. Some activities that I do at home are chapping the yard, washing cars and bicycles and sometimes cooking and washing. I am a friend, a child, a student and an example to follow because I am influential for many persons to follow my steps because I am honest, respectful and well behaved.
I hate English and I love Mathematics. What a typical example of a Math major. We Math students hate English and the English students hate Math. God knows why all that controversy. I am able to perform well in intimate conversations with a partner. I find it difficult to communicate what I feel, especially with the person of opposite sex. I am always ruin it because I concentrate on personal development. I don't like to speak to much with a girl because many at times girls have a bad interpretation of what boys say. But I understand that we humans take things as how we want. Moreover, I have a good sense of control over myself and my emotions. One weakness of mine is that I could easily fall in love, but I understand that it is not really love but poppy love. I use my weakness to make me more strong and to battle in this life. How I can use my strengths? I could help others in specific areas such as Math and self control. I could give advice because I am peaceful, talented, tolerant, honest and respectful person. How I can improve my weakness? I belief that I have to work with them more often. I have confidence in myself but is the nervousness that kills me. I have to get involved in more pro-active and social learning groups.
Finally, I have values for my self and who I am right now could be reflect to my hard work and dedication. I am well educated but not perfect, but as any body with some mistakes in life. I strongly encourage for persons to follow the road of their dreams and to never give up no matter how many obstacles are in life that at the end life awards us.
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Monday, February 22, 2010
Questions for the movie Precious
1. What were the factors that contributed to Precious having low self-esteem?
-The factors contributing to Precious low self-esteem were: child abuse, sexual abuse and rejection of her mother and of the public (i.e. Precious not having a boyfriend and her mother verbally insulting Precious). Other would be that she disconnected from the real world and she also isolated herself.
2. What signs of low self-esteem did Precious display?
-The signs that Precious display of low self-esteem were: she tried to be like someone she wasn’t (i.e. When she was not on her head by her mother she was dreaming that she was a famous model, also when she getting ready to go to school she saw a different person on the reflection of the mirror which she taught she was.) also, she kept quiet and she ate to much. She also disconnected from the world. (Refer to question 1)
3. What defense mechanisms did Precious use to avoid dealing with pain? Give examples.
-The defensive mechanisms that Precious used to avoid dealing with pain were displacement and reaction formation; for example, displacement, when she slammed the plate on the table, and reaction formation when she masked and disconnected from this world; for example, when her father raped her she masked though as if she liked it but it wasn’t so.
4. What neurotic needs did Precious over-use or display? Give examples.
-The neurotic need for affection and approval was which Precious displayed. For example, she always wanted to have a boyfriend who would like her as she is, and she was sensitive to rejection because she was fat. She feared anger and criticism from others. For example, when her mother told her that she was fat and ugly and that she wouldn’t learn anything in that teach one school.
5. What helped Precious increase her self-esteem?
-What helped Precious to increase her self-esteem was that she had to express herself and taking out the deepest emotions she had hidden. She expressed herself through writing stories about her own life; she also got help from specialist on those areas.
6. What signs of higher/increasing self-esteem did Precious display?
-She was happy, satisfied, and she felt good about it and herself. She had more confidence and persistence on herself.
7. What did you learn from the movie?
-I learn that anyone can be as good or as beautiful/handsome as others. Also, that no matter what we can be a better person, and we decide what we want to be.
8. Would you recommend the movie to others? Why or why not?
-I would not recommend the movie to no one I know, why not? Because it is sad and comic movie to many of us hater of the black race, and because many would laugh like how we did or we would even laugh at somebody who looks similar to “Precious.”
1. What were the factors that contributed to Precious having low self-esteem?
-The factors contributing to Precious low self-esteem were: child abuse, sexual abuse and rejection of her mother and of the public (i.e. Precious not having a boyfriend and her mother verbally insulting Precious). Other would be that she disconnected from the real world and she also isolated herself.
2. What signs of low self-esteem did Precious display?
-The signs that Precious display of low self-esteem were: she tried to be like someone she wasn’t (i.e. When she was not on her head by her mother she was dreaming that she was a famous model, also when she getting ready to go to school she saw a different person on the reflection of the mirror which she taught she was.) also, she kept quiet and she ate to much. She also disconnected from the world. (Refer to question 1)
3. What defense mechanisms did Precious use to avoid dealing with pain? Give examples.
-The defensive mechanisms that Precious used to avoid dealing with pain were displacement and reaction formation; for example, displacement, when she slammed the plate on the table, and reaction formation when she masked and disconnected from this world; for example, when her father raped her she masked though as if she liked it but it wasn’t so.
4. What neurotic needs did Precious over-use or display? Give examples.
-The neurotic need for affection and approval was which Precious displayed. For example, she always wanted to have a boyfriend who would like her as she is, and she was sensitive to rejection because she was fat. She feared anger and criticism from others. For example, when her mother told her that she was fat and ugly and that she wouldn’t learn anything in that teach one school.
5. What helped Precious increase her self-esteem?
-What helped Precious to increase her self-esteem was that she had to express herself and taking out the deepest emotions she had hidden. She expressed herself through writing stories about her own life; she also got help from specialist on those areas.
6. What signs of higher/increasing self-esteem did Precious display?
-She was happy, satisfied, and she felt good about it and herself. She had more confidence and persistence on herself.
7. What did you learn from the movie?
-I learn that anyone can be as good or as beautiful/handsome as others. Also, that no matter what we can be a better person, and we decide what we want to be.
8. Would you recommend the movie to others? Why or why not?
-I would not recommend the movie to no one I know, why not? Because it is sad and comic movie to many of us hater of the black race, and because many would laugh like how we did or we would even laugh at somebody who looks similar to “Precious.”
I Value
1)I value having life.
2) “ '' talking
3) “ '' speaking
4) “ '' reading
5) “ '' walking
6) “ '' learning
7) “ '' having my complete body
8) “ '' having a good life
9) “ '' doing great at school
10) “ '' having my parents alive
11) “ '' having such intelligence
12) “ '' leaving a good image of myself
13) “ '' dreaming of possible accomplishment
14) “ '' loving others
15) “ '' caring for others
16) “ '' wearing my own
17) “ '' getting recognitions and awards.
18) “ '' having respect for myself and others
19)“ '' having my independence
20)“ '' getting an education
1)I value having life.
2) “ '' talking
3) “ '' speaking
4) “ '' reading
5) “ '' walking
6) “ '' learning
7) “ '' having my complete body
8) “ '' having a good life
9) “ '' doing great at school
10) “ '' having my parents alive
11) “ '' having such intelligence
12) “ '' leaving a good image of myself
13) “ '' dreaming of possible accomplishment
14) “ '' loving others
15) “ '' caring for others
16) “ '' wearing my own
17) “ '' getting recognitions and awards.
18) “ '' having respect for myself and others
19)“ '' having my independence
20)“ '' getting an education
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Who I Was
Throughout my life there have been drastic changes within my family and surroundings. Who I was? That is a very good question that I ask myself every time, but everything is in the past now. Who I was; I was a young person who had different characters than now.
I could start with my family life: I born at the Corozal Community Hospital, I used to live in Paraiso Village, I have two brothers and one sister, and my parents are separated. I graduated from Paraiso Government School and I went to Escuela Mexico. I was the unwanted child before I born, and up to now I am the preferred one. I have greatest achievements that I have accomplished such as getting awards for 1st, 2nd and 3rd premiums the highest scores of the entire class. In primary, I got two 1st and two 2nd place of my class, I got one 3rd place award. In high school at the end of the four years I got six 1st place and one 2nd place awards because the school just gave awards on the last year (fourth form). I have participated in competitions; for example, the Math Olympiad.
The only trauma that I have through is the separation of my parents, I was young not knowing well what was going on, all that I wanted was my parents to be together but I t was possible. I was really affected because the dream of any kid is to have his/her both parents together as one big family. That was the saddest moment I have through, and the happiest moment was when I received various awards and recognitions of my great effort in my education. I once got scared of the following situation: I was once being robbed but it turn out to be a fake one, but I got scared. I was on a wedding and I got drunk, then started to dance like crazy, I felt embarrassed but I believe that I am not the only or the first person who have done such thing. I have changed my style of living and now I am independent.
Throughout the years of my education, my father, + grandmother, uncle, aunts and the entire family members have encourage me to continue studying because I am a great and intelligent student. They have been there when I needed it the most, with support and with money wise. There is one person that I want to thank even though he not here anymore, he was a teacher of mine at high school. He influenced me to follow my dream and his dream too. He taught me Mathematics, and I was one of his brightest students. He told me to follow my dreams and that it didn’t matter how big or small they were. The only thing needed to accomplish them was time, patience and determinance.
This person, “Who I Was” is now in the past, and I am now with different ideas in life.
Throughout my life there have been drastic changes within my family and surroundings. Who I was? That is a very good question that I ask myself every time, but everything is in the past now. Who I was; I was a young person who had different characters than now.
I could start with my family life: I born at the Corozal Community Hospital, I used to live in Paraiso Village, I have two brothers and one sister, and my parents are separated. I graduated from Paraiso Government School and I went to Escuela Mexico. I was the unwanted child before I born, and up to now I am the preferred one. I have greatest achievements that I have accomplished such as getting awards for 1st, 2nd and 3rd premiums the highest scores of the entire class. In primary, I got two 1st and two 2nd place of my class, I got one 3rd place award. In high school at the end of the four years I got six 1st place and one 2nd place awards because the school just gave awards on the last year (fourth form). I have participated in competitions; for example, the Math Olympiad.
The only trauma that I have through is the separation of my parents, I was young not knowing well what was going on, all that I wanted was my parents to be together but I t was possible. I was really affected because the dream of any kid is to have his/her both parents together as one big family. That was the saddest moment I have through, and the happiest moment was when I received various awards and recognitions of my great effort in my education. I once got scared of the following situation: I was once being robbed but it turn out to be a fake one, but I got scared. I was on a wedding and I got drunk, then started to dance like crazy, I felt embarrassed but I believe that I am not the only or the first person who have done such thing. I have changed my style of living and now I am independent.
Throughout the years of my education, my father, + grandmother, uncle, aunts and the entire family members have encourage me to continue studying because I am a great and intelligent student. They have been there when I needed it the most, with support and with money wise. There is one person that I want to thank even though he not here anymore, he was a teacher of mine at high school. He influenced me to follow my dream and his dream too. He taught me Mathematics, and I was one of his brightest students. He told me to follow my dreams and that it didn’t matter how big or small they were. The only thing needed to accomplish them was time, patience and determinance.
This person, “Who I Was” is now in the past, and I am now with different ideas in life.
Monday, February 8, 2010
Online Quizzes and Their Scores
For personality development, we have been doing and answering various online quizzes. Many are related with what you know about your personality, but others are for you to know how much you know yourself. I tests on how good and how much time you take to answer the question because based on that you a get score result. Personally, I don’t believe nor rely on the validity of the information.
On the ennegram quiz, I, as the results show that I answered the questions terrific, but I don’t care because we decide what we are and what we want to be. The highest score that I obtained was a seven and the lowest was a zero. Following the “Big 5” quiz was average on the scores. For extraversion, I got an average, which means that I am not very social, expressive and dominant. By the way I don’t agree with not being very dominant because I am very dominant; I liked to dominant over others. I scored an average on agreeableness too, whereby I agree with the results because I have equal amount of agreeable and disagreeable traits, this means a mix of both options. I scored moderately high on conscientiousness; I do agree that I am encompassing such as planning, responsible and cautious. Also, I scored a moderately high on emotionality; I am very nervous and fearful in expressing my deep emotions. Lastly, on openness/intellect I scored averagely, I like to imagine and to be opened to new ideas in solving problem. According to the 4 traits result, I resulted to be “choleric melancholy,” which I don’t believe myself at all. The following are subtopic on the 4 traits: melancholy, I had a 28% with five strengths and 6 weaknesses; phlegmatic, I scored a 18% with four strengths and three weaknesses; sanguine, I scored 13%, with two strengths and three weaknesses; choleric, I scored 30% with four strengths and 8 weaknesses. I don’t believe what the results were; I know myself perfectly that is why I don’t agree. Finally, the last quiz is “know your mind,” this contains 5 main topics. The 1st one is introversion/extraversion and the following are the respective scores: activity 6 points, sociability 17.5 points, risk-taking 14.5 pts, impulsiveness 21 pts, expressiveness 19 pts, reflectiveness 18 pts, and responsibility 14.5 pts. This showed that I am under control and that I am in the normal stage. The 2nd topic is emotional stability and the following are the results: self-esteem 19 pts, happiness 15 pts, anxiety 19 pts, obsessiveness 13 pts, independence 16.5 pts, hypochondria 16 pts and guilt 17 pts. I scored well in almost all of these questionnaires. The 3rd part is mastery/sympathy and the following are the respective scores: aggressiveness 11 pts, assertiveness 22 pts, ambition 20 pts, manipulation 12 pts, sensation-seeking 21.5 pts, dogmatism 12 pts and masculinity 19.5 pts. I am very mastery and masculine. The 4th part is sexuality and the respective scores are as follows: sexual libido 28 pts, sexual satisfaction 25 pts, sexual permissiveness 23 pts and sexual stereotype 22.5 pts. I am very thankful of whom I am and that is the way it should be. The 5th part is political attitudes and the scores are as follows: social permissiveness 14 pts, racism 13 pts, belief 12 pts, socialism/capitalism 25 pts, libertarianism 20 pts, reactionism 16 pts and pacifism 15 pts. I just answered this section because it was a requirement, but I completed 18 years and I am just getting started with politics.
Overall I don’t care what the results say because I am the one who knows what is best for me.
For personality development, we have been doing and answering various online quizzes. Many are related with what you know about your personality, but others are for you to know how much you know yourself. I tests on how good and how much time you take to answer the question because based on that you a get score result. Personally, I don’t believe nor rely on the validity of the information.
On the ennegram quiz, I, as the results show that I answered the questions terrific, but I don’t care because we decide what we are and what we want to be. The highest score that I obtained was a seven and the lowest was a zero. Following the “Big 5” quiz was average on the scores. For extraversion, I got an average, which means that I am not very social, expressive and dominant. By the way I don’t agree with not being very dominant because I am very dominant; I liked to dominant over others. I scored an average on agreeableness too, whereby I agree with the results because I have equal amount of agreeable and disagreeable traits, this means a mix of both options. I scored moderately high on conscientiousness; I do agree that I am encompassing such as planning, responsible and cautious. Also, I scored a moderately high on emotionality; I am very nervous and fearful in expressing my deep emotions. Lastly, on openness/intellect I scored averagely, I like to imagine and to be opened to new ideas in solving problem. According to the 4 traits result, I resulted to be “choleric melancholy,” which I don’t believe myself at all. The following are subtopic on the 4 traits: melancholy, I had a 28% with five strengths and 6 weaknesses; phlegmatic, I scored a 18% with four strengths and three weaknesses; sanguine, I scored 13%, with two strengths and three weaknesses; choleric, I scored 30% with four strengths and 8 weaknesses. I don’t believe what the results were; I know myself perfectly that is why I don’t agree. Finally, the last quiz is “know your mind,” this contains 5 main topics. The 1st one is introversion/extraversion and the following are the respective scores: activity 6 points, sociability 17.5 points, risk-taking 14.5 pts, impulsiveness 21 pts, expressiveness 19 pts, reflectiveness 18 pts, and responsibility 14.5 pts. This showed that I am under control and that I am in the normal stage. The 2nd topic is emotional stability and the following are the results: self-esteem 19 pts, happiness 15 pts, anxiety 19 pts, obsessiveness 13 pts, independence 16.5 pts, hypochondria 16 pts and guilt 17 pts. I scored well in almost all of these questionnaires. The 3rd part is mastery/sympathy and the following are the respective scores: aggressiveness 11 pts, assertiveness 22 pts, ambition 20 pts, manipulation 12 pts, sensation-seeking 21.5 pts, dogmatism 12 pts and masculinity 19.5 pts. I am very mastery and masculine. The 4th part is sexuality and the respective scores are as follows: sexual libido 28 pts, sexual satisfaction 25 pts, sexual permissiveness 23 pts and sexual stereotype 22.5 pts. I am very thankful of whom I am and that is the way it should be. The 5th part is political attitudes and the scores are as follows: social permissiveness 14 pts, racism 13 pts, belief 12 pts, socialism/capitalism 25 pts, libertarianism 20 pts, reactionism 16 pts and pacifism 15 pts. I just answered this section because it was a requirement, but I completed 18 years and I am just getting started with politics.
Overall I don’t care what the results say because I am the one who knows what is best for me.
The Anxieties- Defensive Mechanisms That We Use Everyday
Many of the anxieties that we have could be used in a healthy manner. This defensive mechanisms are healthy unless overused, in other words it have a negative and/or positive effect on humans. The ones I have used are denial and intellectualism. Denial is when you cannot face the truth, and intellectualism is when you think about or examine feelings as if you were another person.
In many instance, I have denied feelings, emotions, and truths to and from my friends and family members. For example, I have denied instances especially when I love or do feel something for a girl. Other instances, I have denied stuffs like when I do something wrong, and that is because I have always had a clean record. I usually don't behave bad; I am peaceful. One time, I was in class and I was fooling around with a mirror, and I reflected it to a teacher's face, at the time I was in class, and the teacher saw the reflection. The teacher went in to my class, and he was asking who did it, I denied it totally, and they did only found the mirror.
Sometimes consciously and unconsciously, I have intellectualized instances that are very important in my life. For example, when I love a girl, I ask and analyze the situation asking myself if, “I do really love that person?” If, “I do want to be with that person?” If, “I will be able to handle the situation?” What I like about that person? How much time I want to be with that person? Other instances are when I think about school/education; for example, I always think about, “what I will do when I finish Sixth form?” What must I do to improve my studies? How could I achieve better grades? Do I like the subject that I am taking?
According to Karen Horney, there are ten neurotic needs, but I fall under two of them. I have the neurotic need for prestige and personal achievement. When I have done something great, I feel satisfied with the public admiration and recognition. I am smart, and I fear to public embarrassment and the loss of academic status. Whatever I propose, I work towards that personal achievement. I always push myself to higher achievement of my goals. I am never satisfied and I fear failure, especially in school related activities. Such as my subject that I am taking. I fear not to graduate this year.
What I must do to improve these defensive mechanisms? I have to start living the reality of this world, and not to believe in fantasy world’s again.
Many of the anxieties that we have could be used in a healthy manner. This defensive mechanisms are healthy unless overused, in other words it have a negative and/or positive effect on humans. The ones I have used are denial and intellectualism. Denial is when you cannot face the truth, and intellectualism is when you think about or examine feelings as if you were another person.
In many instance, I have denied feelings, emotions, and truths to and from my friends and family members. For example, I have denied instances especially when I love or do feel something for a girl. Other instances, I have denied stuffs like when I do something wrong, and that is because I have always had a clean record. I usually don't behave bad; I am peaceful. One time, I was in class and I was fooling around with a mirror, and I reflected it to a teacher's face, at the time I was in class, and the teacher saw the reflection. The teacher went in to my class, and he was asking who did it, I denied it totally, and they did only found the mirror.
Sometimes consciously and unconsciously, I have intellectualized instances that are very important in my life. For example, when I love a girl, I ask and analyze the situation asking myself if, “I do really love that person?” If, “I do want to be with that person?” If, “I will be able to handle the situation?” What I like about that person? How much time I want to be with that person? Other instances are when I think about school/education; for example, I always think about, “what I will do when I finish Sixth form?” What must I do to improve my studies? How could I achieve better grades? Do I like the subject that I am taking?
According to Karen Horney, there are ten neurotic needs, but I fall under two of them. I have the neurotic need for prestige and personal achievement. When I have done something great, I feel satisfied with the public admiration and recognition. I am smart, and I fear to public embarrassment and the loss of academic status. Whatever I propose, I work towards that personal achievement. I always push myself to higher achievement of my goals. I am never satisfied and I fear failure, especially in school related activities. Such as my subject that I am taking. I fear not to graduate this year.
What I must do to improve these defensive mechanisms? I have to start living the reality of this world, and not to believe in fantasy world’s again.
Monday, January 25, 2010
The Anxieties- Defensive Mechanisms That We Use Everyday
Many of the anxieties that we have could be used in a healthy manner. This defensive mechanisms are healthy unless overused, in other words it have a negative and/or positive effect on humans. The ones I have used are denial and intellectualism. Denial is when you cannot face the truth, and intellectualism is when you think about or examine feelings as if you were another person.
In many instance, I have denied feelings, emotions, and truths to and from my friends and family members. For example, I have denied instances especially when I love or do feel something for a girl. Other instances, I have denied stuffs like when I do something wrong, and that is because I have always had a clean record. I usually don't behave bad; I am peaceful. One time, I was in class and I was fooling around with a mirror, and I reflected it to a teacher's face, at the time I was in class, and the teacher saw the reflection. The teacher went in to my class, and he was asking who did it, I denied it totally, and they did only found the mirror.
Sometimes consciously and unconsciously, I have intellectualized instances that are very important in my life. For example, when I love a girl, I ask and analyze the situation asking myself if, “I do really love that person?” If, “I do want to be with that person?” If, “I will be able to handle the situation?” What I like about that person? How much time I want to be with that person? Other instances are when I think about school/education; for example, I always think about, “what I will do when I finish Sixth form?” What must I do to improve my studies? How could I achieve better grades? Do I like the subject that I am taking?
What I must do to improve these defensive mechanisms? I have to start living the reality of this world, and not to believe in fantasy world’s again.
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